Regrets

Regrets

A short story of How the Girl fell in love.

-Have you ever felt butterflies on your stomach?

My story starts when I was in high school, freshman I met this guy named ‘charmuleng’, ,at first I did not pay attention to every move he made to make me notice him, I’d always ignored him, and sort of rejected him always since I really don’t want to beget closed and befriended with him at that moment. One afternoon upon going inside the comfort room this guy behind me keeps on talking nonsense and I kinda don’t like it and slowly his arms are almost around my shoulder like his making a move or “diskarte”, I ignored him, then looked at him and say nothing then walked away. I don’t know what his thought after that but I think he really did not like that.
We did not get the chance to talk to each other and he did not get the chance to say his feelings with me also. I was so numb and really stupid, of course, who would’ve thought that I will fall for him. After a few weeks of rejecting him and ignoring him , he stopped eventually and later on I found out that his with another girl already. I then realized after I found out that his with another girl already that I liked him.
Months passed by he is constantly popping up on my mind and sometimes can’t understand why every time I do something else his face that I always see. But I did not pay much attention to it, I always divert my attention and chit chat with my friends always just to erase that stupid thing on my head.
But sometimes I feel uncomfortable; it feels like there’s something always bothering me. At first when I felt that I did not think that I was already in love with him, oh God!, can’t believe it but, I don’t know what happened but felt like I wanna be with him always. Sometimes I go around the campus just to look and see him far away. And then I got my junior level, I was not expected that he will be the boyfriend of my close friend and classmate. I sometimes just don’t look at them, because every time I see them I get disappointed. I had a lot of crush on my high school days but I don’t know why I’m stick on this guy. What did I found on him that I did not find to other guys. I always asked that question to myself, why him?
I tried to divert my feelings to somebody else and tried to be happy with them but unfortunately they’re all not worth, I mean they did something special and I could see their efforts on that but sometimes it’s not enough. I’m searching for something in a guy. Even myself I don’t know what is that, that I’m looking for. I guess I’ll just have to keep on searching the right guy for me.

Until I got my senior level still did not get the chance to talk to him and still trying to get his attention. And until we graduated, so sad I wasn’t able to say sorry and talk to him what my feelings were.

Right now I’m already working and earning money for myself, it’s been 7 or 8 years already that we haven’t seen each other with my ultimate crush. I know his with someone else and happy. I just hope for best for him. I know I can never bring back the past and correct those mistakes and make it right so that we can be together as friends or lovers. If only there’s a time machine that can bring the past back, I would really go back to the time I first met him and talk to him and do what I should’ve done…

I’m still hoping until now that one day he will realize that I’m his true love even if I know it’s no longer possible to happen….
Can’t understand why until now I still keep on thinking about him. And until now still wishing I could see him.

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SELF

SELF

There are simple things in life that can’t be bought with any amount of money. Things that does not require money so you can afford. Things around you that are visible yet in your own eyes it’s invisible.  Don’t know what I mean? well, It’s for you to find out.

Giving your self a teat is not bad. Providing yourself a time to relax and away from the stress is one way of escaping from all your problems and stressful days you had.

Always give time for yourself .Going in a vacation alone is one way of giving yourself oppurtunity to think and to realize what you really want in life.Don’t tie yourself in just one place and with the same people around you, go out and explore new environment and experience things you havent done before. Travelling is one way of escaping from your comfort zone. Dealing with different types of people from different places or countries can boost you confidence. Do things you havent tried. Travel to some places where you can find peace and meditate with your own self. Going to a vacation is one of the gifts you can give to yourself, creating memories and discovering things that are new to you are one of the precious moments you can treasure until you get old. Although having a travel buddy is much more convenient when creating and capturing every moments you had it’s also nice to be alone with just yourself. It’s more important you can get to know more about yourself because that is where everything starts that you learn to respect and appreciate yourself that you cannot find to other people. It’s not that bad to appreciate and giving your accomplishments an award.

Creating and building self esteem is one of the most important things you may learn along the way while you travel alone.

Balance your life. You need a life!!! I mean “Get a life”!!! Go out and expose yourself.

Do not imprison yourself in a box. You need to get out , don’t just focus on one thing, set a goal and make it as your primary purpose to be a successful individual.

Let me give you some ideas on how you can spend time with yourself:

  • Public. First thing that comes to our mind when we say :”go out” are going to malls, foodcourts, parks and resturants.It’s less hassle and less money that you can spend. And another thing is going to bars, clubs and pubs.
  • Beaches. You can also go to your near beaches which you can unwind and enjoy the view. And when it comes to beaches Philippines has a lot to offer, even in one city you can find a lot of beautiful beach that I’m sure you can really enjoy. Going to resorts is one of the nicest way of getting yourself pampered and unwind. Although it may costs a lot of money but you will surely not regret it. Some of the beaches do not costs much and those are the low costs beaches that you can still find on your local areas
  • Out of town. Book a trip just for a week. Just to give yourself time to relax and get away from all the stress. Nowadays, a lot of hotels and resorts from different cities are giving discounts and has low costs of accomodations. And it’s a great time to grab the oppurtunity while it lasts.
  • International. Go out in your confort zone, maybe it’s time for you to take the risks as a Foreigner outside the country. Well, actually it’s not a risk but more on a challenge to yourself since you will be going alone as an independent person to a place that is new to you or a new environment. It’s a very nice experience to see genuine places that you haven’t been before, watching the views that only your naked eye could see. Coz’ you could actually feel overwhelmed  and amused by the things you can find along the way. See the beauty of the world that can offer.

 

Don’t waste time and prepare to see what journey could bring you.

IF you have any comments or suggestions please feel free to comment down or email me. Thank you.

You

You

Having a hard time figuring out yourself?

Here’s a short story that I want to share with you from one of my friends who’s having the same feeling like you do. This is actually normal to experience this kind of situation because it is part of growing up and getting mature. 

I sometimes can’t explain myself, I mean I do not understand myself sometimes in some things. I don’t know why, but I feel like I look like an idiot. It is awkward and uncomfortable. I sometimes think that I’m going to get crazy for thinking so much things that I should not care.

Right now what I always thought was. I feel like I’m a prisoner locked out in a room/box, always afraid of something and was never exposed to anything. Can’t move because there’s always someone looking at you. And afraid of something that may destroy me. 

But  I some how realize those quotes/sayings that I always read on the internet are somehow true. That you have to do what you gotta do, whether its bad or good, It’s our own choice, your destiny as what they said. Truth is whatever you do, people will always say something about you.

  •  Realizing one’s self can be so hard and sometimes difficult to figure out. You have to take the risk of being alone and be with things that makes you happy and make you realize what you really want in life.

I would like to know what are your experiences of dealing yourself, can you drop a comment or send me an email of your story and I’ll publish it with your consent.

Email me: alouettatruffle@yahoo.com

Please feel free to comment and give your opinions or your experiences ’bout finding YOURSELF below.

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